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i'm sorry i haven't posted anything in awhile. I've been thoroughly depressed.. depression causes me to paint and color a lot, so i have plenty that i could've been uploading this whole time, but i'm very lazy. I'll try to pick up the will to upload SOMETHING here eventually.. Pinky promise i'm trying to be happy and make a lot of dumb jokes when i'm upset and laugh a lot to try to get myself in a good mood! I'M TRYING! just need to get myself back in my right mind and stop thinking about things that simply can't matter to me. ANY SUGGESTIONS? (other than therapy, mama's already forcing me with that.) sorry if this turned into a rant, i don'

They're blank, the color of nothing Blank walls to match their faces Painted smiles, faking emotion I pretend not to notice Another day slips into forever I stare into the nothingness that confronts me Allowing it once again to transform into my nightmares The nothingness unfolds into unending beauty A swirling darkness that I've come to know well I can taste the screams that roll off of my tongue Death approaches, i welcome her with a smile Once again she passes me by Her figure unleashes it's many creations Dancing around me, they taunt my every attempt to break free Still, I'm wrapped in a seemingly eternal blanket Bout in n

I hope to heaven i win!! oh my goodness! ugh this would go with my room so wonderfully, for all that don't know, it's an amazing painting that is being entered into a contest and i want to win so bad,, now all i have to do is share a photo of hers on fb and send this link to her!!